Seems to be tougher than i thought..

I can hardly say what i really feel. Perhaps the best word is "confused"... But what i do know for sure is that... you see, life isn't always fair... and sometimes it isn't fair with me. It gave me many things, but still wants to steal them from me, and, instead, it offers only wounds. It wasn't ment to be this way. I'm sure. But... can't find the reason WHY. WHY the hell everything that's supposed to last forever... is about to melt just in the very next moment ?!?!
I cannot live without these memories... OUR memories.... I miss u leanin' on my shoulder while we're sitting in the bus, i miss yor hand holding mine so tight and warmly each time we were walking, i miss your eyes looking gently into mine while our lips couldn't get apart, i miss your hugs on the bench.... i miss you. I want you. I couldn't live without you. What can i do without you?
... Who am I without you? Are you aware of that...?
I wanna keep you... keep you a whole life... but is it possible? I can't stop thinking of you... of us... yes, I'm an addict.
Be my drug, happiness pill!